CURLY KALE LIVES ON

Its hard when a part of your family is broken into pieces... This week I have had my heart ripped out quite suddenly and am left with a blank nothingness as far as my feelings are concerned. Flo a ball of round loveliness was given no option but to leave us. On one hand I know that my decision to let her go was the right thing for her soul but on the other I am now left with a selfish angry loss... it hurts and as I keep telling family and friends its "JUST RUBBISH". Tim is gutted and its hard to see his grief. I know with time we will learn to adapt but I wont, wont stop feeling about my troublesome foot nibbler who is in the next room, around the corner... but just not with us. I loved and still love her, she brought laughter, anger, love, worry, warmth and fun into our lives that wont ever go away.
My brother wrote me a few words which has made some kind of sense through the whole of this week and I love him for it, these are his words:


"There are, as always, no words to help fill the aching hollowness in your chest. It's a dreadful thing we keep putting ourselves through. But who else would care as much. That seems to be our lot. We are here to care and to care so much it tears us apart. I'm sharing a tiny bit of your emptiness right now. Take a walk in the park and find some glimmer of hope in the life springing all around. Even the beauty in an old tree stump. It's all part of the same. It seems a cruel cycle that we ride along ourselves. Our own mortality is the most fundamental thing we share with all creatures. The loss is gut wrenching but it has to be this way to make way for new beginnings."


I am at some point in the future going to make way for the next new beginning but until that time I want to believe that Flo is somewhere happy and at ease... my friend hopes she is running through fields and fields of Curly Kale... I think she is, if the muslim faith is right you get all you ever dreamed of in the after life so Curly Kale must be on the menu for Flo :)







Flo-B you are deep in our hearts and I am glad we had the opportunity to share your short life with you X